Feelings - Sad and Blue

Today I feel sad - really, truly sad -
and I know that that's really bad - but I can't help it...
Today I just feel like having a good cry -
but still I try to smile the tears away - though I can't...

I know it's not right and it's not real -
to be living in a world of make belief - but still I do...
I know it's getting harder each day to go on pretending -
yet I do, and cover the truth rather well - or presume I do...

And this misery is eating into me - slowly but surely -
and I just wonder how long I can hold on...
Before the volcano erupts and spew out its burning lava -
before the world starts to point out - and call me a liar...
Before the twigs break under extreme pressure -
before the heart succumbs to all this spiritual torture...
and lay broken in a hundred thousand tiny pieces -
while the world still shakes its head with displeasure...