What "men have always asked" -

I've always asked this -
"Why does the sun shine on me?"
when the day is as beautiful as today -
have i done something good to deserve this?

Have i helped a fellow man -
someone in need or in pain?
have i said a word or a line -
that consoles, and soothes away his pain?

Have i done what i should, and more -
to get this favour, of a sunny, sunshine day?
is there more that i should do, or should have done -
to keep the sunshine shining my way, brightening up my day?

And if rain clouds form on my horizon -
does it mean that i have done a great wrong?
if it pours and storms and wreaks havoc and destroys -
does it mean that i have commited a great sin?

Would someone be there to tell me if i'm wrong -
or do i have to find out for myself, and right the wrong?
Would it do for me to just say i'm sorry, that i'm wrong -
or do i have to find ways to atone for that error, that wrong?

I would like to know where i've gone wrong, if ever i'm wrong -
and i would really want to right that wrong, say i'm sorry and all;
for i feel that a wrong that is left to fester and blister all along -
would most likely cause a cancerous tumour, and be fatal, before long...

So i'd like to say what had been said before:
"O my sun, my golden sun! I shall strive to live
so that i may be worthy to be shone upon,
and tended and warmed by your light..."