Looking At Life - From Both Sides

I used to be so optimistic about life -
and what surprises it has in store for me;
i used to love to sit in the shade and wonder -
at life's beautiful dreams... with you in it...

But now i tend to just sit and contemplate a little -
and just wonder how i am going to take it:
if i have to visit you - for the last time;
if i have to just stand there - can't even say goodbye...
if i love you deeply - and can no longer tell you so;
how then, am i to live with the pain of parting, forever...?

I tell myself if it has to be, then it has to be:
i'll learn to live with my rich past in mind -
for in the past, all was well - and you were there...
in the past, i basked in your love, and danced to your songs...
i laughed when you joked, cried when you were sad:
i lived, with your love warm on my cheeks...

So, if i can't have a future with you in it -
then i'll just live that future with the memory of your love...