Feeling Sad

Tonight i feel sad - my heart a lump of lead -
it is just one of those moments when one feels utterly sad...
a passing whisper... carried by the wind... a memory... a remark -
wrings the heart with unconsolable sorrow...
and hot tears sting the eyes - but would not fall -
to give relieve, or to lighten that lump of lead...
and i'll remember, every time i am sad:
that tonight my lonely heart had cried, but my stinging eyes were dry...
tonight i had felt the great sorrow wring my heart -
but could not find relief, for the tears have dried...
a long, long time ago -
when the heart had died...
but the recollection of all the pain and sorrow -
centers on you, and rests on your words tonight...

"No man is an island"

Man is a social being, seldom a loner -
for man loves to air his opinion,
to put into words, even his most private thoughts,
to champion his rights, fight for justice,
to speak out his mind, and his heart,
to seek approval, to be appreciated...
so man is a social being -
one who can never survive alone...

I used to value my privacy, alone in my own world -
enjoyed my own company, enjoyed being alone...
took long walks, alone; watched the sunrise, alone -
i used to love reading, writing, and knitting - alone...
i used to love gardening, cooking and decorating my home -
but now i read biographies, simple technology and even history...
not just literary scripts, biology, and geography -
write out my feelings, knit my thoughts, and share my feelings...
watch my garden cease to bloom, cook only when necessary -
and take pains to groom myself, more than my home...!

For i, too, have realised that life is not centered on us alone -
but in relation to others around us, and the world...
i have come to enjoy a tete-a-tete over coffee with friends -
more than crying alone for the plight of the world...
i have come to value friendship, not just being alone -
and the content and warmth of being loved by others i know...
not just wallow in self-pity, all by myself, all, all, alone -
for i have finally grown into that social being, i now know...

Every night i pray

"There can be miracles - if you believe" -
and that there are things that we can achieve...
so long as we believe - so, i believe, too -
that so long as i believe - i can achieve...

So every night i pray -
that what i believe to be right, is truly right...
and what i feel so strongly, is rightly so -
and that what i achieve is what's rightfully mine...

For i would not want to wish upon a dream -
and then find that it wasn't the best dream to wish for...
i would not want to make a foolish wish upon a star -
to later find out that it was all just make-believe...

So every night i pray -
that what i'm doing is true and right...

Life is one big dream

Yes, that's what i feel -
that life is just one big dream after another...
for when we set off to achieve what we've been dreaming of -
little did we realise that another would soon follow...

So, life is made up of one big dream after another -
and love happens when and wherever cupid points his arrows...
sometimes he is sure, and makes one good strike -
but at times he's not, and makes another go at his matchmaking...?

For me, life started as a tiny little blurry dream -
the tiny dream of a simple little small town girl...
But that little dream has grown into one bigger dream -
and as time passes, it has become one big dream after another...

Oh yes, i still do dream of beautiful dreams -
and yes, i still hope that beautiful dreams will still come true...

Dreaming a thousand dreams

i´ve been caught dreaming again -
dreaming about a thousand little dreams...
i´ve been to places that i´ve dreamt about -
so often in the past, so real nowadays...

i´ve caught myself dreaming again -
about people that i love...
those lovable faces that i´ve left behind -
back in my beloved homeland...

i´ll go on dreaming -
of the day when i return to see loved ones...
the day when i can stop dreaming of home -
till then, life is but one big dream...